After The Tsunami - The Ugly Side of Malaysia Government For The Past 52 Years

I'm on neutral grounds.

Selepas Tsunami (After the Tsunami) from Pusat KOMAS on Vimeo.

Wanting it versus Needing it

I've constantly reminding myself to spend wisely because I tend to overspend without realising until the credit card bill comes. Paying the chunck feels like cutting a chunk of meat away... simply painful.

I have been dreaming of iPhones, and was that close to walk into the nearest Maxis store but was saved by the idea of wait for iPhone 4. I even contemplate to take leave from work to get it... thats how bad I was. And like today, I photography magazine for almost MYR100!!! For the first time in my life, the most expensive spending on magazines at one go, just magazines!!! OMG.

For the upcoming holiday get away to the very exotic and scenic culture rich places that allow great photography moments, now I itch to get a better lens for my little 1000d. Yes thats easily another few grands. As much as I would love to buy it... I was reminded by a conversation some time ago with Mama, A, and P, where P mentioned getting something "I need" not things that "I want". I'm now very much driven by the "I want" mode. I'm resisting myself!!!

I so WANT this one now... Damn...

Blog Make Over

After disappearing for sometime, yes missing the July posts, yet again I broke my record for zero post in a month. Dang it. I must come back more often now. I need a break from everything... I need a break.

To begin with, I now have a clean, fresh and renewed blog layout.... ahhh... I'm loving it... Watch out for this space, expect the unexpected....

I Still...

I could not believe I left May with no entry.

It has been somewhat roller coaster ride of emotion since the last entry, ever since then it was about more than a month. I mean, in a good way. Sometimes I do question myself for being silly and I think for some it sounded a little idiotic. I can't change what they think though but saying don't mind about it is just bullshitting.

I think I have become more sensitive and emotional as time passes, in which very much against my believes of wisdom gained through aging but it seemed otherwise. Would it be the people around me?


I still love to travel.
I still hate my obnoxious neighbour.
I still do what I do best.
I still haven't got what I want.
I still haven't got back in shape.
I still believe... that I can do it.

I Shall Not Be Bothered

It is creeping up on me.
I don't like it.
Too much negativity, still.
If you choose to use those words, it is your choice.
I shall not be bothered by it.
But I'm totally disappointed.
So much disappoitment that it accumulates through time.
And time shall prove it.
Why don't you understand? Why...
I just don't understand.

Frustrated.

Disappointment can't really describe it.
It is beyond that.

Stinking Shit Got Luck

After knowing it, surprisingly, I was happy for the one that I was not to be easy with. I'm sincerely glad that good piece of fortune has landed to afar. It not only showed the luck anyone can get from the shit it came from, one hell of a stinking smelly shitty dung of all time. Full of flies.

Anyways, well done.

Let see where do I go from here? I wish I got the same luck too.

For Real - Better, Bolder, Rounder...

Alright I have been missing from the blogsphere.
I shall refrain myself from posting nonsense Youtube videos.
But I still can't get over of the privacy intrusion if I choose to reveal too much in this little space, but.... but having Facebook come in the way... should I still be that cautious?

Too many to update, to much to think about and of course, too much have been left out; let's not washed away by time.

Blog entries may not be the same as before, but I'm striking back.
Bigger... Bolder... of couse... Rounder!!!

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